Snow Globe

I’m looking into a snow globe

I see myself inside

I look so fragile there

The glass makes everything magnified

We all have these tiny knives

Point, pull, poke, stab

Our hearts are all bleeding

Yet we pretend we don’t see the blood

You’re mocked if you do

So I scream, ‘I’m bleeding!’

‘I don’t want to be in the snow globe no more’

Some leave with me

They’ve seen life outside too

But many don’t want to leave

It’s not their fault

Their hearts have bled too much

It’s too cold and dark inside

They’re tossing me around

The pretty doll that took off her mask

She’s not so pretty now

I say enough is enough

But they just laugh and mock

The snow globe feeds off chaos

This fight never ends

I didn’t like it when I was losing

I was miserable when I won

So I chose to stop playing

I’m not your doll anymore

This isn’t fun

Sometimes I still look inside the snow globe

I see hearts filled with daggers

And hands covered in blood

They’re still stabbing at my name

Laughing and crying all day

It’s quite absurd when you view it from here

But outside of the snow globe

You wouldn’t believe the silence

My heart is healing

I’ve never felt like this before

All they have is a name

So twisted and torn

Useless words savage claims

Turns out I’m not so small

I’m not as fragile as I thought

Once I left I could finally see

I put down my knife

I chose not to let myself bleed

I wish they could join me

But the snow globe makes it hard to leave

They’re trapped inside

All they do is mock and bleed

[November 9, 2015]